Sunday, January 16, 2011

giving thanks while waiting

thank You for
this solitude.
for the endless expanse
of sea and sky
outside the window,
the gulls still sleeping
on the sand bar,
white wings tucked in tight
against the chill morning air.

for the peace these bring
in this moment.
i can see my car in the parking lot
and all the others,
coming and going, the people
like me,
walking in with fearful
or resigned
or carefully blank
faces,
into this place
of cold
sterility.
my mother is here, and
i wait and wait
and sometimes the walls
close in but just
in this moment,
i am alone with
the sky and the sea
and the gulls,
and You.

I wrote this while alone in the hospital waiting room during my mother's heart catheterization last Monday. She has had many such procedures, and quite a few heart attacks as well, including a mild attack last weekend. This time things went well, and the doctor was able to clear a blocked bypass graft. A similar procedure awaits in a month or so. At 81 these things are always tricky, and Mom has needed help this week, so I've been away from the computer most days. I miss you all! Thank you for your words, your prayers, your gifts of love and empathy and friendship.

You are a gift.

linking to imperfect prose...

31 comments:

B. Meandering said...

I've been missing you also and been wondering how your mother is and how you are feeling phsically, mentally, and emotionally.
Still praying, friend.
Beautiful poem forged by tough life moments. I'm so glad you've found avenues such as photography and poetry to help release thoughts and feelings. Topping on the ice cream is that you're gifted in both. :)

Elizabeth said...

And YOU are a gifted poet! I am glad to hear that your mother is doing better and will continue to think about, pray and send positive thoughts your way. What a beautiful daughter you are --

S. Etole said...

"White wings tucked in tight" ...

reminds me of nurses as they share their acts of mercy in these confining walls ...

so good to have you back

Misty said...

you are beautiful, leslie. i know that you are His hands to your mother and that your heart is soft with love and many prayers. i also continue to pray for your mother and am grateful for the moment w/ the gulls. he knows.

♥ w o o l f ♥ said...

hold on
hang in
x

Dianne said...

Your poem is lovely and moving... I hope you mom recovers quickly and you get the rest you so dearly need.

Kay L. Davies said...

Thinking of you and praying for you and your mother.
Love, K

Kay, Alberta, Canada
An Unfittie's Guide to Adventurous Travel

Googlover/keishua said...

Such a heartfelt poem. I really enjoyed reading it.

deb said...

oh, Leslie ,
I stopped reading to scroll through to find the author.

Your mother is so blessed.

Continued prayers.

Dianne said...

My feet were in the snow in western New York last February. This little Florida girl LOVED IT! Thanks for coming by!

Brian Miller said...

oy not a big fan of hospitals...glad your space was expanded in the waiting...and thanks for the kind words over at emilys

Francesca said...

Thinking of you and your mom.

rebecca said...

dear one,

my mother just turned 80. we are so blessed to have "our girls" with us.
my heart is with you offering comfort and support.
rest and take care of yourself along the way.
we are all with you....even when you are away.

xoxoxoxoxoxox,
rebecca

Tracy said...

So beautiful, Leslie, just so beautiful. My heart really goes out to you, your Mom and your family just now. My father having had heart attacks and health scare last year, I know what you are going through. Prayer and meditation go a long way to keeping serene at such a time. Please know I'm here, if you'd like to talk. :o) Prayers... ((HUGS))

LauraX said...

♥ holding you close.

Jodi said...

You are a poet! Still praying, and hoping you're holding up physically. xo

beth said...

she is so blessed to have you there helping her....
praying...listening.....holding.....
and now i send some prayers her way, too.

Yolanda said...

Such a talent with words you have. Thanks for sharing this.

becky at abbeystyle said...

I've been away for a week or so...so this is all news to me. I'm so sorry to hear of it and will keep you and your mom in my thoughts and prayers. So glad you could escape to the birds on the sand as you wait...

rebecca said...

i am thankful that every new day is a chance to start over.
so glad we are walking this path together.

xoxoxoxoxo,
rebecca

Debbie D. said...

May you always be able to experience Him in those moments of solitude that are so necessary at times.

Praying for your mom and so glad that the procedure went well.

tea said...

Lovely words here. It's so good to be able to give thanks like that. To see the beauty and goodness that God has placed around us even in difficult times. I pray your mother is doing well.

Nancy said...

I am always amazed at how gracious God is, giving us those glimpses of His presence in the midst of those moments of cold and fear and sterility. So glad He gave you these moments and that you shared them here. As with the others, have missed you terribly. Blessings to you and your mother.

Connie Mace said...

"for the endless expanse
of sea and sky"...GOD's gift to you...a moment in difficult times...praying...

Brian Miller said...

what a lovely poem...and hope that you mother is better soon...scary stuff when a parent is ill...

emily wierenga said...

oh leslie... there is God in these words. i find myself crying for the longing... to meet him, as you have here. with such tender embrace. you are such a loving daughter. such a faithful friend. xo

Loni said...

This is beautiful . . .and sometimes writing during the shadow days, you find the joys shinning thru. You certainly did here.

Enjoyed reading!

Becky Avella said...

I'm always thankful for the gifts of peace God gives us when we need it. Thank you for sharing yours. Praying right now for you and your mom as you walk through all of this.

Carrie Burtt said...

Leslie I have missed you....glad your Mother is okay, and hope she is doing better and better. God bless you. :-)

Terena said...

beautiful poem. you really capture those blessed moments when we can see beyond our fear and take in the beauty of life, no matter how hard things are at the moment.

I'm glad things went well with your mom.

Rick said...

I'm here (real) late, but I hope all is going much better with your mom - and that a burden has been lifted from you both. God bless you, and your mom.