Saturday, June 21, 2014

sometimes i pray the psalms.

Lord, hear my prayer, listen to my cry for mercy;

in Your faithfulness and righteousness, come to my relief.

I spread out my hands to You; my soul thirsts for you like a parched land.

Free me from the trap that is set for me ...

Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning…

(Psalm 143:1, 6;  Psalm 31:4; Psalm 30:5)

Friday, June 13, 2014

on the beauty of darkness

Grief makes everything so dark and confusing. Sometimes it feels as though I will never have a free and happy thought again. And then this morning it rained, and I took these photos:

Do you see it? The way the darkness brought out the texture and pattern in the light? This morning I'm holding onto that. And this, too:

“So don't be frightened, dear friend, if a sadness confronts you larger than any you have ever known, casting its shadow over all you do. You must think that something is happening within you, and remember that life has not forgotten you; it holds you in its hand and will not let you fall. Why would you want to exclude from your life any uneasiness, any pain, any depression, since you don't know what work they are accomplishing within you?”   Rainer Maria Rilke

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

blithe spirit

you always were, you know.

a blithe spirit.

love abounding.

and then you grew up

and got so wise, too,

but never old, somehow —

that's why we were so surprised

when it was time for you to leave us.

brave, bright, funny girl.

not a dog, so much more than a dog —

a ministering spirit.

we are lost without you.

Lady, beloved friend. August 12, 2000 - June 3, 2014.