Wednesday, January 13, 2016

storms on mars

sometimes i am alive,
but not living.
sometimes i'm
breathing,
but not alive.
"yet not i, but christ lives in me."
does he?
there is faith, but it falters
in the wake of
everything.
in the everydayness of being
alive
but not living.

there is no dearth of
moments,
rich and full of happy laughter,
of love and friendship and
connection.
it's more like i'm short-circuited,
like aliveness
zaps in and out depending on
the current state of the
power grid,
or the tides, or the moon,
or the storms on
mars.




4 comments:

Loree said...

Have you ever thought of publishing a book with your poetry? It's beautiful Leslie and it speaks volumes.

Kay L. Davies said...

I like what Loree said. And I love her name, because it's my middle name.
I can certainly understand what you said here...
"it's more like i'm short-circuited,
like aliveness
zaps in and out depending on
the current state of the
power grid,
or the tides, or the moon,
or the storms on
mars."
because I often feel the same way. Plus I have to deal with loneliness. My husband referees basketball and football for local high schools, and sometimes for the college, as well as his regular job. Lindy and I both miss him, and we seldom have visitors except for my friend who comes every second week to clean. I am no longer busy on committees and whatnot. I don't drive in winter, and don't walk well in snow or ice.
But there are still good things in my life. I just don't seem to be in control of very much.
Sigh, right? LOL — meanwhile, it's so nice to be in touch with you again.
Hugs, K

Tracy said...

Oh, Leslie! That first stanza shakes & quakes me--that's how I've been feeling sometimes! You express the struggle of being alive so heartbreakingly beautiful... Be be keep trying to breathe, we keep trying to keep going, we try to bring out Christ within us... YES, you should consider publishing your poems, Leslie--you have a special way with words. :) So glad to be catching up with you here after a post-holidays slump... Happy 2016 Blessings! ((HUGS))

Jennifer Richardson said...

I so get that:)
We long to be wholehearted and live bigger.
We're created for muchness:)
Just for the record, you make my life bigger.
Just so much:)
-Jennifer